First order of business...THANK GOD FOR THE SUNSHINE TODAY!!!!!!!!!! I've been waiting weeks to finally see sunshine and today is the day! Which is incredible because it was a challenging, awful, stressful day.
As all of this change is coming at me, I'm realizing a lot of things, both about myself and about the people around me. It's funny how stress and change can really bring out the true character of a person.
I'm realizing that I:
-need a lot more work with dealing with stress.
-need to do things I enjoy more so that this stress doesn't have an opportunity to build up and affect my attitude.
-rely on other people to make me happy, instead of looking to the ONE (God) that can bring you joy. Not happiness, but true joy.
-am a whole lot stronger than I thought I was. But sometimes I let that strength and independence block out support I need from people. Because I think I don't need help.
I'm realizing that there's a big difference between "friends" and true friends. With change comes new chapters, new people, new relationships, and new beginnings. But it also brings with it endings, closing the cover on some chapters and ending relationships purely because two people are heading down separate roads.
Some people in my life that I valued as true friends are turning out to just be friends. And as hard as it is to cut those ties and realize you don't mean as much to them as you thought you did, it's better in the end. No sense in wasting your time on someone who doesn't value you like a real friend should. They let you down, they only come to you when they need something from you, and when it comes down to it, they don't really want to spend time any extra time with you, whether you need it or not. Those are the kinds of people that you minister to. Be kind and friendly but keep your walls up. Protect your heart.
Apparently I'm having trouble with that because that had a tiny hint of rant in it.
I miss the way things used to be. I miss Kentucky. I miss my friends down there. I miss my family. I miss playing volleyball. I miss going out on the weekends, going to movies and drive ins and parks and games. I miss the way my life used to be. And I'm having that kind of day.
But hey. it's sunny outside. :) Silver lining. And God loves me, despite the day I'm having, or the week I'm having. No matter how upset i get or how stressed I am. God is Peace. He's hope and he's rest. And I'm thankful for that.
For every reason I find that makes me frown, God reminds me of all the reasons I have to smile. And I have a lot. I'm blessed. I take all that I have for granted so often. But I have so much to be thankful for. I'm the lucky one.
~Be strong in the Lord and never give up hope. God's got his hand on ME so don't live life in fear. Forgive and forget but don't forget why you're here. Take your time and pray. Thank God for each day. His love will find a way.~
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