10-11-12

So today's date is 10-11-12. And I think that's really cool. Only once every year does it happen like that..that the numbers go in order like they do today. And for some reason that hit me today as a picture of my life right now. Every once in a while I have a day where I feel like "Oh hey, things are kinda lining up for me right now". Some days things are in order like they should be. But its short lived. This is stupid but its what I thought about today.
Oh a completely not deep note..it only happens one more time...11-12-13. And then never again. For like the next 100 years or something. Sad. :)

Lots of things are changing right now and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I've never been a fan of change. Because most change sucks. But I believe God has got some major good things in store for me. I just hope he gives me a hint of what those things are soon because right now my heart is being tugged in two completely different directions. And I feel like I could be "happy" either way but...who knows.

Today was a rough day.
I want to write more.
I want to take more pictures.
I want to be done with school but I don't want to think about leaving my friends.
Some days my heart is so full. And some days I feel so broken.

"I'm coming back to a heart of worship..where it's all about you Jesus."

Good news is the sun comes up again every single morning. You just have to have the strength to get up and go outside. And some days its harder than others. Some days you have to see past the clouds to know there's sunshine back there somewhere, and it'll come out eventually. Just wait for it.