Talk About A Whirlwind

Holy. Cow.

This has been the craziest experience of my life. There's a quote that says "Just when you think life can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think life can't get any better, it can".
That's so so true.

Going through my divorce, and actually finally doing it, I thought was the hardest thing I would ever go through. I thought life couldn't get any worse. But it did.

But the last few days have changed my life drastically.
We have had a guest speaker at the church and the first day he talked about "Surviving the In-Between". In saying that, he meant that you can get through the initial conflict, but not be completely done with the problem yet. You came out of Egypt, but you're not in the Promised Land yet. He explained that most of the time, the "in-between" time can be the hardest part of it.

I thought that finally saying the words and filing the papers was the hardest part of my problem, but it was just the beginning. I've been hit so many times the past few weeks and I wondered why it felt harder now when I thought it should be easier.

Nigel (our guest speaker) said that you can get through a conflict purely because you're in survival mode. So you push your way through the initial conflict, but after that you're left to just lick your wounds and you're weak and tired. But you aren't out of the woods yet so you have to keep fighting even though you don't feel like you have anything left.
That's how I've felt.

I've been so desperate for answers. And Sunday morning I finally got them. God got a hold of me and broke off every chain. He lifted that burden and my goodness I've never felt so free. I have joy like I haven't had in YEARS. I came to a whole new level.

I'm don't have to endure the next 38 days. I can enjoy them.

I've become so much stronger. I feel so hopeful and strong and free. Finally. Things are looking up.
Nigel spoke over me and said "I'm speaking over your life today, God says it's moving day. You're coming out of this."

And all I have to say is that I am coming out of this.


Im just so happy now :)

So. this is a post to say no more drama and complaining. from now on only sunshine and rainbows :)) Spring is finally coming so expect pretty pictures.

29 days until I leave for florida for a weeeeeeeeekkkk!!!!! I can't wait.

Life is good.