Wow.
What a week.
For real.
You know those ball pitching machine things they have? This week I feel like I am standing in front of one of those without a bat, and they are firing like 100 curveballs a second. And the balls it's pitching are made of like lead mixed with really heavy cement.. And it's all I can do not to just.....die. :)
That's how insane it has been. But you know what? I trust God is saying "Thank goodness she is still hanging on because I have such incredible plans for her future if she can just hold on a little longer". So to God I say "Alright dude. If you say so. But just so you know, my hands are starting to hurt". =]
Right in the middle of the biggest struggle in my life, I get offered the opportunity to pursue the job of my dreams. THE JOB OF MY DREAMS. When I applied for it all those months ago, I laughed as I mailed the application. I thought to myself that there was no way I would ever hear from them. And then BOOM. When I finally felt like I was figuring things out, here comes another round of curveballs.
Things I've realized throughout this week:
-it's not that God isn't speaking to you. It's that you aren't listening.
-it's up to you whether you want to call something a blessing or a curse. Make the best of what you're given. It could be a blessing in disguise.
-sometimes, you really do have to just rip the bandaid off in one quick motion. It's true that pulling it slower hurts worse :)
-it's better to admit you made a mistake early on. Don't stay involved in something because you feel obligated. Admit you messed up and change things.
-Just found out, scars are good. Cuts and wounds leave scars. Under scars is scar tissue. That gives you thicker skin. Thicker skin is good. Ergo: Wounds=good.
-If you give up on something, you'll live the rest of your life wondering what could have been. If you have to live life with regret, do what you want and regret it. Don't do what every one else wants, because then you'll spend your life regretting not being your own person and making your own mistakes.
I could go on forever because there's all this ridiculous stuff going on in my head. But there's more to that later. Maybe.
Things I want to do really bad:
-Go to on a movie date
-Go hiking
-Make rice crispie treats (On my sunday to-do list)
-Get a kitten
-HAVE A DAY OFF WORKkK...gah
-Have an afternoon to just sit and read the whole book "Dear John" because it's my favorite.
-Play football (or volleyball)
And lots of other things that I can't think of because i'm so tired.
I'm excited to see what God is going to do because lots of people keep telling me that the best things happen after you come out of a storm. Well I've been in one doozy of a storm so..it should be good. I'm not even sad/frustrated/scared anymore about what is going on. I'm just anxious and excited. And for the first time in months, I feel content. It's nice :)
I wish I had some happy pictures or something to post right now but I don't have any so here's a smile instead
:)
♫ You don't have to keep on smiling that smile that's driving me wild
And when the night is almost over
Meet me in the middle of a moonlit Chevy bench seat
And do a little bit of country song, hanging on
You don't have to keep me falling like this
But it'd sure be cool if you did♫ Blake Shelton "Sure Be Cool If You Did" aka my new favorite song.
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