Rant.

Risk: possibility of loss or injury.
In order to get something that you really want, I think it's necessary to take some risks. I'm dead set on getting something, and I'm willing to get hurt again just to try and get it. There are always situations that can scare you to death just thinking about what COULD happen. But you'll never know if you don't take a chance. Dive in. And if you get hurt, you'll heal. Done it before and you can do it again.
Taking a risk is sometimes worth the price you paid. But then again, sometimes it isn't.

Also. Is it really too much to ask to have a 100% good weekend for once? This past weekend was going to be perfect, and then something happens that ruins all the fun you thought you were having. It makes everything that has happened feel like a lie. I don't want to be just another girl.
♫I'm so tired of being lonely...don't I give you what you need?♫


1. don't say something if you don't mean it with 100% of your heart.
2. be loyal. no matter what
3. dont lie. for goodness sakes i'm not stupid. lying to my face about it hurts more than the actual act.
4. I don't have to do this. no one is irreplaceable.
5. if you're gonna call yourself a Christian, act like it. All the time. Not when people are watching.
6. Integrity...look it up.
7. watch your step. Just because there's an obstacle placed in your way doesn't mean you have to run into it.
8. you have no idea how lucky you are to have someone until you've lost them.
9. treat people like you'd want to be treated. put yourself in my shoes, and then tell me how that feels.
10. I am a firm believer in "what goes around comes around"... i just call it "sowing and reaping".

I just wish we could go back to a time that we didn't have cell phones, facebook, computers, email, text, all that junk. it would make my life so much easier.
Oh, and grow up.

All that to say, the walls around this girl's heart are back up. Higher this time than they were before. One step forward and two steps back. Welcome to my life. Can't trust anyone apparently. Except God I guess.

This post is way way too long.