Things I Love

1. When Parents give their kids money to put into the offering at church.
2. Seeing Christmas trees tied to the top of cars. (some family is going to have a nice night)
3. After a rainy day, you go outside and the sun is finally shining.
4. Hearing from an old friend and finding out they're enjoying life as much as you are.
5. When people say I love you.
6. Getting a good grade on a test you know you studied hard for
7. Knowing you can do anything you set your mind to. The world's wide open.

I'm happy. ..There are a lot of things I would change if I could, but I'm (almost) content.

♫Nothing can separate, even if I ran away....I know I still make mistakes but you have new mercy for me everyday. Your love never fails.♫

Life Can Be Funny Sometimes

It's crazy how much a couple of decisions can change everything about your life.

9 months ago, I never would have thought that I would be where I am today.  9 months ago I was enrolled in a college in Kentucky. I was set on moving, I knew who my roommate was going to be, I had a plan. I was single and excited to get out of Indiana for a while and pursue some dreams.

But. God had a different plan...or he at least let me change my mind. I found an alternative to school. I moved to Indy and I can't imagine enjoying school any more than I do now. I love that change of plans, and it's definitely been a good choice for me. I'm excelling in something that I love so much, and I'm good at it..

9 months ago I met a guy that changed my life. I never would have pictured being the way I am today. 

I couldn't be happier. =]

More updates:

1. My job shadow was incredible. Makes me even more sure of my choice :)

2. My family is way cool

3. It's 70 degrees on November 14th........................................................

4. I get to see my brother for the first time in 7 months...and i only have to wait 4 more days.

5. I get to play volleyball tomorrow night for the first time in FOREVER

6. Cody is the greatest boyfriend ever. 

7. I love lazer tag

8. School is amazing. Drawing blood in class tomorrow :)

9. Christmas is really soon. But not as soon as Thanksgiving..which i get to spend with my boy :)

10. I love lists.

God is good...Blessings out the wazoo :)

Rant.

Risk: possibility of loss or injury.
In order to get something that you really want, I think it's necessary to take some risks. I'm dead set on getting something, and I'm willing to get hurt again just to try and get it. There are always situations that can scare you to death just thinking about what COULD happen. But you'll never know if you don't take a chance. Dive in. And if you get hurt, you'll heal. Done it before and you can do it again.
Taking a risk is sometimes worth the price you paid. But then again, sometimes it isn't.

Also. Is it really too much to ask to have a 100% good weekend for once? This past weekend was going to be perfect, and then something happens that ruins all the fun you thought you were having. It makes everything that has happened feel like a lie. I don't want to be just another girl.
♫I'm so tired of being lonely...don't I give you what you need?♫


1. don't say something if you don't mean it with 100% of your heart.
2. be loyal. no matter what
3. dont lie. for goodness sakes i'm not stupid. lying to my face about it hurts more than the actual act.
4. I don't have to do this. no one is irreplaceable.
5. if you're gonna call yourself a Christian, act like it. All the time. Not when people are watching.
6. Integrity...look it up.
7. watch your step. Just because there's an obstacle placed in your way doesn't mean you have to run into it.
8. you have no idea how lucky you are to have someone until you've lost them.
9. treat people like you'd want to be treated. put yourself in my shoes, and then tell me how that feels.
10. I am a firm believer in "what goes around comes around"... i just call it "sowing and reaping".

I just wish we could go back to a time that we didn't have cell phones, facebook, computers, email, text, all that junk. it would make my life so much easier.
Oh, and grow up.

All that to say, the walls around this girl's heart are back up. Higher this time than they were before. One step forward and two steps back. Welcome to my life. Can't trust anyone apparently. Except God I guess.

This post is way way too long.

Photos :)

 Took a trip to
the barn today. :)

insight.

I'm going to be a photographer. 

Decided today. It's gonna happen. I love photography too much to not allow it to be a huge part of what I do. SO...I'm going for it. Along with being a vet tech :)

I spent the day with my best friend. It's refreshing to be able to talk to her and gain a bit of perspective on some things. She always leaves me with a feeling of...confidence I guess. I feel like I can actually make all my craziest dreams come true, like maybe those dreams aren't so crazy after all. 

Along with deciding I'm going to do photography for real, I've decided I'm going to start writing again. Who says you can't have more than one job? Journalism can be a side thing too. :)

I'm getting really excited seeing all of these pieces of my life falling into place. I spend every day picturing how my life is going to play out after I finally get out of school. 

I also just discovered a new country band, Coldwater Jane, that I am in love with. 

♫I got a will like a freight train, hellbent on barreling through. I wont crawl in the corner and wither, cuz theres something to prove when theres nothing to lose. The world will wear you right down to the bone, make your tired heart want to put your dreams up for sale, but you’ve been tossed around like a rag doll enough,  up and down on your luck, it’ll either make you frail or tough as nails.♫ <-- So true about me hah

I also wanna say thank you to all of my friends that support me so much no matter what. I know most of them won't ever read this, but my friends mean the world to me, and I thank God every day for them. I wouldn't be where I am without my best friends.

I'm happy. Really happy. And almost content. For the first time in months. =] thanks to God, the fact that its almost winter, my Nikon camera, my family, my amazing best friend Victoria, Nate, Nando, and the best guy in the whole world=Cody. 

I couldn't live without any of that/them, and I'm so glad I'll never have to know what it feels like to not have them in my life.

Have I mentioned I love writing? =]

Deuces for tonight. 

John 10:10 [Jesus says] I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

Rodeo Daze

I have so much I want to do...I need a vacation. And some money. =]
1. I want to go back to the National Finals Rodeo at Freedom Hall.
2. I want to go hunting REAL BAD. And learn to shoot a bow.
3. I NEED to ride a horse, like now.
4. I've decided I hate living in Indy. The city sucks real bad.
5. I'm thrilled to death that winter is coming. Turned on the heat today, smells like my house is on fire. But it's so great.
6. I miss my mom.
7. I'm never coming back to Indiana. Ever.
8. I love making lists. =]

Hope today stays nice. Woke up to sunshine. It's gonna be a good day.

5 months later...

Chapter 2.
Life.Is.Good...

Independent. Finally. Going to school for Veterinary Technology. Making all my wildest dreams come true.
I've got a God bigger than any problem I've encountered. A family more generous than most.
And a heart that still isn't satisfied.

One year until graduation
One month until I finally get to see my big brother
I'm so so blessed and I'm losing sight of just how good I have it amidst all of the junk life throws at me.

16 months until Colorado. And it can't come soon enough.
And I'm falling in love with the man of my dreams. Cody <3


John 14:6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

Wow. i'm getting good at this.....

So it has been almost a month.
I work. I'm literally counting down the days until I can get outta this place. I can't wait to start over. I may never come back to Bloomington. I'm ready to find myself all over again, start my life on my own. With Nando :)
God's been real patient with me lately and I'm so thankful his mercies are new every morning, his love never fails.

Isaiah 26:4 "trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord alone is your eternal Rock."

Pictures to Update

The happy bride and groom

Pretty wedding party

So Much Change

It's been forever. Catch you up?
April 9th...Brandon and Morgan tied the knot.
They moved to Florida on the 24th, and they love their apartment.
I got accepted to the Vet Tech Institute at IBC in Indy. I'm getting an apartment and I can't wait.
I hate working but I have a decent job.
My family is going to need some work now that Brandon and Morgan are gone. I look forward to that.....
I am in desperate need of horse time. I want to ride so badly right now. But I can't.
I only have one week of school left. ONE WEEK. it's insane. I'm a college freshman now :)
I love my life.
I'm sick sick SICK of this rain. It needs to go away. But I woke up to Sunshine this morning so it's bound to be a good day.
Love Jesus.
OH oh, and TONS of great new country songs out there too. I love them.

Hugs from Jesus

So I really really wish that Jesus still physically walked on this earth. I know his Presence is here, and I feel that, but I wish I could see him. I wish I could get a legitimate hug from Jesus. Can you imagine how encouraging that would be? I cannot wait to spend eternity worshiping his in Heaven with my fellow believers. It's going to be unreal.
This week has been great. I finished my school week and headed out of town for a couple of days. Spent a relaxing weekend with my grandparents. I'm believing God that he will provide me with a good job, and soon, so that I can get some money saved up for school in the fall.
Spent a good chunk of time with my little cousin too-I'm convinced he is the cutest kid on the planet.
I love vacation. I'm sick of eating!!!!! All we do when we come is eat out with family...catching up with everyone. I'm ready to go home and get a decent night's sleep also.
I plan on enjoying my next week of vacation. =]

♫I just wanna worship you, for all my days:
lift my hands and bring you praise. I don't wanna stop.
I don't wanna stop♫

Grandma's cat Sassy enjoying the weather outside.








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This is Sam. The world's cutest kid.

p.s. Spring has finally arrived =]

We're Livin' in Fast Forward.

This week has flown by. In a couple of days, 2 actually, my mom and I are finally FINALLY going out of town for a while. My Spring break is already here, and I cannot believe it. I'm half way through my second semester of college. 2 months until school is out. 5 months until I get to move to KENTUCKY!!! And It couldn't come fast enough.
Things are so good right now. School is moving right along, I hate it, but it's a necessary step to get where I'm going. Church has been pretty good lately. God is as amazing as ever. I have the best friends ever, even though I haven't seen my best friend in too long. I love my life.

~~~"Your Love is like Fire, that burns for all to see. 

My only desire is to worship at your feet, 

so let this fire consume my life.

Let your love take me deeper, 

draw me closer to where you are.

All I want is more of you! 

When you call I will follow, 

at the Cross I surrender all. 

Jesus I belong to You."~~~

Just Another Day in Paradise

Today was another spectacular day. The weather has been PERFECT for this time of year, and it makes it hard not to wake up smiling, not that anyone would want to wake up not smiling...
I got a chance to go out to the horse rescue I worked at for the first time in almost 6 months. SO many new horses there that I had never seen before, but many many familiar faces that I was happy to see again and doing better than ever.
This little visit further confirmed what I have felt is the call on my life for years. I HAVE to help horses. I HAVE to have my own place. I cannot do anything else..you can't go against a passion. Its just there. And  I thank God for that. I just pray God will help work out finances to make all these dreams come true :)

I just wanna move to Kentucky and be around horses and people that love horses, and move on with my life. I need to get outta Bloomington and start somewhere new, somewhere perfect.
I love Jesus. He's amazing.
And this song is so good:
---I need to live a little, have some fun
Take some time, waste it on number one
Find a *boy that brings my whole world to a stop
Live a little, love a lot
Step back, smell the rose
Feel the sand between your toes
Unplug, unwind
Step out in the sunshine
I need to live a little, have some fun
Take some time, waste it on number one
Take the *boy, get a map and pick any old dot
Live a little, we need to live a little, love a lot---

I love life right now. Things are fan-flippin-tastic.
I get to hang out with my best friend in 4 days too. Could it get any better? :)
I think not.

Blue skies and green lights =]

Mighty Breath of God

"Blow, Mighty breath of God. Move upon this place"

I am never not amazed at what God can do. Spending time in his presence makes you feel so much stronger. Praise = Strength.
If you are facing a lot of problems-financial, life, relationships, employment- I can tell you right now that you can't figure it out. You cannot do it. By yourself. But with God all things are possible. If you are having trouble with anything in your life, PRAY. Spend time in the presence of God and let him take care of things for you!!!

That's my sermon for the day. I have had such an amazing week. I've been hanging out with some of my best friends for days in a row.
the weather has been upper 50s and 60s all week long, and it has been gorgeous.
My heart is still totally longing for the mountains. I want to go west. I need a change of scenery as soon as possible =]
Hope Everyone has a fantasticcc day!

"We have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him."
1 John 4:16 (NAS)

God is Good...All the time

I am so happy. I love my life. I love my family. I love my friends. I adore my boyfriend. I love LOVE LOVE my God. He's done some pretty spectacular things in my life recently and I cannot thank him enough.
Lord keep speaking to me and showing me your glory!

Yet Another Flowerless Day.

Happy Valentines Day all!!
Spent the day working, delivering flowers to a bunch of  romantics. It was interesting.
Jesus is the best Valentine you'll ever have. He gave his life for you. which is infinitely better than any flowers or chocolate.
Give God your whole heart. Show God you are ready to be used and he will prove himself everything you thought he would be. And more.

I'm Dreaming Big.

Colorado. Mountains. Mustangs.
Sounds like heaven right now.
I haven't ridden, or even touched, a horse since May. It has been way too long!
I'm counting down the days until the end of March. Going down to Evansville to visit the Mustang adoption with the horses the BLM rounds up each year.

I cannot wait until August.

Things are good. God's still listening. I'm prayin my heart out about some things.

Some encouragement:
"BE STRONG IN THE LORD, NEVER GIVE UP HOPE. YOU'RE GONNA DO GREAT THINGS, I ALREADY KNOW. GOD'S GOT A PLAN FOR YOU SO DON'T LIVE LIFE IN FEAR. FORGIVE AND FORGET BUT DON'T FORGET WHY YOU'RE HERE. TAKE YOUR TIME AND PRAY. THANK GOD FOR EACH DAY. HIS LOVE WILL FIND A WAY."

Winter Wonderland =]

It is absolutely beautiful outside. On top of the 1.5 inches of snow and ice, we have an additional 2 inches of snow and it is still falling beautifully. I really love this weather right now. Enjoy =]

My First Official Blog

So, this is my first official posted blog. =] How exciting. I'm not for sure what I'll will be posting about, but I guess it'll just be random happenings in my life. I'll include whatever noteworthy stuff that may happen. I have a good lead on a job so I may FINALLY get to start working again. It's about time because I am going crazy.
I have absolutely fallen in love with Alamosa Colorado. It is a gorgeous town in south Colorado, and hopefully I'll get to visit sometime in the near future.

God has been really great lately. I am feeling better and better with each day and I praise God for that. He is amazing and he is slowly transforming my life. I can feel it. Took a walk early this morning in the snow to take some pictures, and I saw a bunch of deer in the woods :) Beautiful morning. I am falling even more in love with the snow, which is weird, but I welcome the feeling.
I hope this blog isn't awful and boring. I would love any comments from anyone. My goal is to keep this blog encouraging and uplifting, no complaining, or at least very little complaining. No need to bring down anyone's day if they happen across this. Life is good. God is better.
Have an amazing day :) I'll write again soon


Until then, blue skys and blessings :)