[In regards to the title: If you haven't seen the movie Anchorman, don't...it's an awful movie. If you have seen it...I'm sorry but it is hysterical :)]
So I have so much going through my head right now. I'm gonna start with the sad stuff because I want to end on a high note :)
Emotion #1 : Sadness mixed with a tiny hint of happy.
The old pastor at my church was a good friend of mine. His name was Pastor Jim, and he was the senior pastor at my church the first 4 or 5 years that I lived in Indiana. He moved away a few years back, and through a series of events he got really sick and passed away about 3 years ago. And it still kills me.
He was like another dad to me. He meant the world to me, and he changed my life. He motivated me to be a better Christian, he brightened my day. I loved him so much and I owe him a lot. All that to say that since he has been gone I've struggled with hanging onto my walk with God.
I was recently given a couple of his old sermons from church on CD, and I absolutely couldn't get up the nerve to listen to them. Until today.
I bawled like a baby. But it was that almost happy crying. Like I was smiling because it made me so happy to hear his voice again. I never wanted to get out of my car. I wanted to listen to it all day. But it made me sad knowing I could never see his big goofy smile again, or hear him messing around and singing bluegrass music, or get another chance to hug him. But he is with Jesus now, happier than he has ever been.
Not a day goes by that I don't miss him.
Emotion #2 : Frustration.
My dog's leg is getting worse. I can't seem to get a handle on him and it is driving me crazy. We have to find a solution. He needs to stop licking his leg and making it all nasty again. HE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!
WARNING: The following picture is yucky.
Emotion #3 : Pure Bliss :)
I LOVE my job. I love working at the clinic. I love the people I work with. I love the animals and the clients. I love all of it. I'm so blessed to have been put in a position to be where I am today. God has moved some things around to where I am now 99% sure I will get a job at my intership place (which is what I wanted all along). At first they said no, they didn't need to hire anyone, but now I just found out that two people are leaving within one week of when I will be done DONE with school. How cool is that?!? I'm so psyched. Being at the clinic just makes me so happy.
(Sorry but I don't have a picture to go along with this one :)
Emotion #4 : Relaxed. Is that an emotion? This morning at the barn was so fun. It was really really foggy. So when the sun came up it was beautiful. And the horses were great. The new barn is almost completed, and it's going to be awesome. Plus I love the cold so, what else can you ask for? It was a good morning.
Emotion #5 : Excitement.
My dad ordered my new camera lens. I'm super excited to start using it whenever it finally comes. So expect TONS of new pictures. You'll know when I get it in the mail :) But now I need to buy a bigger camera bag to fit all my stuff. Good thing Christmas is coming up.
Emotion #6 : Restlessness.
I have so many countdowns going on in my head. SO much to look forward to.
Being done with school. Thanksgiving. Christmas. New Years. Winter. Everything. This is my favorite time of the year. And it makes waking up every morning so easy.
Emotion #7 : Thankful.
I have no idea of some of these actually qualify as emotions, but I feel them anyways :)
I'm thankful for my life. I complain a lot, more than I should I know. But I have it good. I'm lucky. And things are only going to get better as the days go on. I'm confident of that.
Emotion #8 : Hopeful.
"I think that everyone writes a story in their head that eventually becomes their life. And if you don't write it yourself, then someone else is gonna write it for you."
Well I'm writing my own story. The way I want to write it. And as much as people are trying to change me right now, trying to change who I am, it won't work. I am who I am. I know who I want to be. And I'm gonna do what it takes to make my dreams come true. So deal :)
Things are looking up. Or at least they will eventually.
♫I went to bed I was thinking about you. Ain't the same since I'm living without you. All the memories are getting colder, all the things that I wanna do over. Went to bed I was thinking about you, I wanna talk and laugh like we used to. When I see you in my dreams at night, it's so real but it's in my mind. Now, I guess this is as good as it gets. Don't wake me, because I never seem to stay asleep enough when it's you I'm dreaming of, I don't wanna wake up♫ - Don't Wake Me: Skillet
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